My Menopause Meltdown aka How I got on the Jade egg


I hit menopause at 40. Or instead, it hit me. Like a freight train. My situation was very similar to how Elizabeth Gilbert describes her break down in her book Eat. Pray. Love. I too wandered the halls at night and ended up on the bathroom floor in tears, realizing that I didn't want to be married anymore. My husband and I had grown apart, and I was confused and full of resentment. Somewhere along the way, I had lost myself.

With the arrival of Menopause, it was like all the missing parts of me were suddenly front and center and screaming for attention.

I felt trapped, confused, and full of shame and guilt. The only difference between Elizabeth and me was that I was a stay at home mom with three young boys and two dogs. I wasn't going to Italy, India or Bali any time soon. Instead of reaching for my passport, which was often my strategy before having kids, I decided to build a yurt in my backyard. My friends dubbed it the Red Tent. It seemed like the perfect solution to get a little space while staying engaged with my sons.

I had a hunch that there was something I was missing. Deep down inside I knew that in some ways I was just getting started. I knew that I had a lot of passion for life, and there was so much more I wanted to do and experience, but I was missing something. Something essential.

Physically, I was struggling too. I had three big babies in 5 years. My pelvic floor was a mess. I had urinary incontinence, a low level of Pelvic Organ Prolapse, vaginal pain and dryness and sciatica.

Around this time I began training to be a Pilates instructor. I was doing a lot of core work and worked with some of the best teachers in the business, and yet my pelvic floor issues persisted. I was also doing a lot of yoga, practicing daily most weeks and still, my pelvic floor issues continued. I tried the Kegel thing just got annoyed, no results.

Luckily I was following Dr. Christiane Northrup at the time. This was back in the newsletter in the mailbox days. I always loved Dr. Northrup's casual, conversational style and her think outside the box approach to health and healing. It was right about the time I was going through all of the above that she starting talking about pleasure and how vital it is for women to thrive. She started talking about this woman in NYC named Mama Gena and this school that she ran where she taught women a system of pleasure arts. I signed up. I'm forever grateful for Dr. Northrup for pointing me in that direction. I had hopped a ride on the pleasure train. I never looked back.

Enrolling in Mama Gena's School of Womanly Arts was the first step in my healing journey. The school opened many doors to sensual empowerment that I never even knew existed. One of those doors led me to the Jade Egg practice. The Jade Egg practice helped me find my core again on every level. All of my physical ails slowly dropped away, and the missing parts of myself started to fall into place. With the Jade Egg and other holistic sexuality practices, I began to feel like me again.

At about the same time I discovered the power of astrology as a tool for personal and spiritual growth. I found a  system I resonate deeply with that's empowering and soulful. I became somewhat of a double major geek; Orgasm and astrology and began to study both side by side.

Since 2009 I've traveled far and wide and worked with many great teachers in the areas of sexuality, sensuality and astrology. I learned so many amazing tools and had a passion for sharing what I've learned with other women but was I struggling with how to do that in a professional way.

And then came Layla Martin.

I enrolled in Layla's 2018 Sex, Love, and Relationship Coaching Certification Program; a year-long comprehensive 800 hour plus professional certification program devoted to holistic sexuality. The program is cutting edge and was exactly what I was looking for. Not only did I take a deeper dive into my own healing journey, I learned the craft of transformational coaching and how to specifically apply those skills to holistic sexuality. YES!

So, here I am. Ready and eager to be a guide at your side; your personal wing woman devoted to helping you rock your third chapter like a queen. I can't wait to meet you!

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